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Post by cesca on Feb 8, 2007 15:16:04 GMT
Ah but we're all nutters in our own little way, that's what makes us us! And it is good to know you're not alone - especially on here, so if you ever need someone to talk to there's always a friendly person who'll reply and make you feel better. I've had some problems in the past but never actually plucked up courage to talk to someone professionally about it - so I applaud you guys for being brave enough to do so. Like Sammie says, just taking baby steps is a great start, you'll be surprised at how far you've come. And Kelsy, I'm really sorry to hear about your mums, hope you're ok. We're all thinking of you and here for you if you need us. Group hug time again I feel! I only got the help because I was sick of turning to self harm or bottling it up. I've got no problem in telling people that I harm...I'm not at all ashamed of it and I actually see it as a part of who I am. It's part of my life and any scars I have are there as part of my life story. It's no different to getting a tattoo or piercing sone in my opinion Ok, so it's done at bad times but it's still part of my life. But yeah, I only got the help because I was turning to it more and more...cutting, scratching and pulling my hair out. It all became too much. Telling a doctor was the hardest thing I've ever done but it helped a lot and I very rarely hurt myself anymore Ruthie - it sounds like you feel for Tony in the way I feel for Brian May. It's mainly him who has helped me through the extremely hard times I've had in the last few years. He doesn't know, but he's been a lifesaver to me and his music is what keeps me going. I admire him mainly because he has been through and survived depression; although he's a d**n amazing musician too My friend knows how much I admire him, and in November he went up to a book signing Bri was doing in London. For Christmas he gave me a vinyl signed "To Siân, Love Brian May 2006 x". It's the most amazing present I've ever been given; especially as I know that my friend not only told Brian about my fansite (and he did actually already know apparently! got all shy, bless him) but he also thanked him for the help he's given me so far. Keep an idol close...they can help you more than you can ever imagine I totally agree with you 100%!!! When I told my doctor it was twice as hard as he is a family friend (luckily on Adam's side of the family). But it really was hard to sit there and basically pour out the contents of my soul. And then again when I saw my counsellor for the first time. It did get easier, but I couldn't help feeling soiled in some way, or that people would look at me differently.......of course nobody ever did, but it's how I felt at the time. I had spent the best part of 15 years bottling up my feelings and memories, and that first time I started talking was a very mixed bag of emotions. I felt relieved, but also in pain as I had to drag up what I thought had been burried deep within my mind. And although it wasn't easy, I am so glad that I did it, I honestly don't think I could be the person I am today, nor the mother that I hope to become, had I not faced my demons head on and dealt with them. I remember meeting Brain May once, and I took a picture of him standing with Adam (Adam is an even bigger Queen fan that I am!), and I just remember thinking 'what a genuinely nice guy, extremely humble, and very VERY tall'!!!
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Post by shaz on Feb 8, 2007 16:34:03 GMT
You've met him...that's something I want to do more than anything else in the world You're very lucky! He's only about 6'1" Bringing up past memories is a very difficult thing to do, and unfortauntely my brain has gone into the natural process of blanking most of the things that've gone on in my life; which is a bummer to say the least!
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Post by cesca on Feb 8, 2007 17:11:20 GMT
You've met him...that's something I want to do more than anything else in the world You're very lucky! He's only about 6'1" Bringing up past memories is a very difficult thing to do, and unfortauntely my brain has gone into the natural process of blanking most of the things that've gone on in my life; which is a bummer to say the least! yeah he was a gem! I know what you mean, it took me over a decade and a wobbly time for my brain to say 'enough is enough this has to be sorted'
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Post by kelsy on Feb 9, 2007 3:33:52 GMT
Sorry guys, I haven't been around. I've been interpreting for the deaflympics here, so I've been way busy. I didn't really get a chance to read everyones post, but I did scan through, and I am doing fine for those who asked. My mom is moving back in Sunday, although they are not getting back together, we are all going to live together because they both want to see me and my sister. Things are going pretty well, and I haven't been upset at all. =D Everyone, thank you for comforting me, and if anything comes up, I will defiantly share with you.
Shaz, I don't mind that you are telling your story on here. Go right ahead.
-Kelsy
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Post by debbie on Feb 9, 2007 9:31:41 GMT
That sounds really positive kelsy - your parents are obviously very caring.
Deaflympics sounds interesting btw!
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Post by sammie on Feb 9, 2007 19:49:53 GMT
I did know brain may suffered depression. do now! Kelsy glad things are okish ((())) i love this board so much ive read the whole of the post! and i think its wonderful people can share their inner most feelings....and the best thing is they dont get put down for them. and its nice to know your not alone, maybe on another board if you wrote something like this you would get negitive remarks not here so its a gem! [quote author=shaz board=generaldiscussion thread=1170568636 post=1170935348] Ah but we're all nutters in our own little way, that's what makes us us! And it is good to know you're not alone - especially on here, so if you ever need someone to talk to there's always a friendly person who'll reply and make you feel better. I've had some problems in the past but never actually plucked up courage to talk to someone professionally about it - so I applaud you guys for being brave enough to do so. Like Sammie says, just taking baby steps is a great start, you'll be surprised at how far you've come. And Kelsy, I'm really sorry to hear about your mums, hope you're ok. We're all thinking of you and here for you if you need us. Group hug time again I feel! I only got the help because I was sick of turning to self harm or bottling it up. I've got no problem in telling people that I harm...I'm not at all ashamed of it and I actually see it as a part of who I am. It's part of my life and any scars I have are there as part of my life story. It's no different to getting a tattoo or piercing sone in my opinion Ok, so it's done at bad times but it's still part of my life. But yeah, I only got the help because I was turning to it more and more...cutting, scratching and pulling my hair out. It all became too much. Telling a doctor was the hardest thing I've ever done but it helped a lot and I very rarely hurt myself anymore Ruthie - it sounds like you feel for Tony in the way I feel for Brian May. It's mainly him who has helped me through the extremely hard times I've had in the last few years. He doesn't know, but he's been a lifesaver to me and his music is what keeps me going. I admire him mainly because he has been through and survived depression; although he's a d**n amazing musician too My friend knows how much I admire him, and in November he went up to a book signing Bri was doing in London. For Christmas he gave me a vinyl signed "To Siân, Love Brian May 2006 x". It's the most amazing present I've ever been given; especially as I know that my friend not only told Brian about my fansite (and he did actually already know apparently! got all shy, bless him) but he also thanked him for the help he's given me so far. Keep an idol close...they can help you more than you can ever imagine[/quote]
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Post by shaz on Feb 9, 2007 20:05:08 GMT
I did know brain may suffered depression. do now! He nearly tried to kill himself when Fred died But anyway, he's ok now <33
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Post by cesca on Feb 9, 2007 20:17:03 GMT
Sorry guys, I haven't been around. I've been interpreting for the deaflympics here, so I've been way busy. I didn't really get a chance to read everyones post, but I did scan through, and I am doing fine for those who asked. My mom is moving back in Sunday, although they are not getting back together, we are all going to live together because they both want to see me and my sister. Things are going pretty well, and I haven't been upset at all. =D Everyone, thank you for comforting me, and if anything comes up, I will defiantly share with you. Shaz, I don't mind that you are telling your story on here. Go right ahead. -Kelsy anytime young kelsy, just remember we are here yeah?
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Post by cesca on Feb 9, 2007 20:18:03 GMT
I did know brain may suffered depression. do now! Kelsy glad things are okish ((())) i love this board so much ive read the whole of the post! and i think its wonderful people can share their inner most feelings....and the best thing is they dont get put down for them. and its nice to know your not alone, maybe on another board if you wrote something like this you would get negitive remarks not here so its a gem! [quote author=shaz board=generaldiscussion thread=1170568636 post=1170935348] I only got the help because I was sick of turning to self harm or bottling it up. I've got no problem in telling people that I harm...I'm not at all ashamed of it and I actually see it as a part of who I am. It's part of my life and any scars I have are there as part of my life story. It's no different to getting a tattoo or piercing sone in my opinion Ok, so it's done at bad times but it's still part of my life. But yeah, I only got the help because I was turning to it more and more...cutting, scratching and pulling my hair out. It all became too much. Telling a doctor was the hardest thing I've ever done but it helped a lot and I very rarely hurt myself anymore Ruthie - it sounds like you feel for Tony in the way I feel for Brian May. It's mainly him who has helped me through the extremely hard times I've had in the last few years. He doesn't know, but he's been a lifesaver to me and his music is what keeps me going. I admire him mainly because he has been through and survived depression; although he's a d**n amazing musician too My friend knows how much I admire him, and in November he went up to a book signing Bri was doing in London. For Christmas he gave me a vinyl signed "To Siân, Love Brian May 2006 x". It's the most amazing present I've ever been given; especially as I know that my friend not only told Brian about my fansite (and he did actually already know apparently! got all shy, bless him) but he also thanked him for the help he's given me so far. Keep an idol close...they can help you more than you can ever imagine [/quote] totally, it's one of the things I love about this place too - nobody judges anyone which is exactly how it should be
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Post by kelsy on Feb 10, 2007 4:36:25 GMT
Thanks everyone (for the 6th time?) I just got back from doing more interpretation for the deaf. It was really fun, and I think I'm getting a better flow with my signing. I have to get up early tomorrow for a hair cut/dye so I should go to bed, but I just wanted to thank everyone. =) good night
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Post by cesca on Feb 10, 2007 12:10:10 GMT
what colour you dying it?
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Post by kelsy on Feb 10, 2007 14:20:16 GMT
I think black and red... just where it's faded, but I might add some pink, or mix the red and pink together. I'll probably take pictures, and I shall post them if do.
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Post by Kirsty on Feb 10, 2007 16:30:47 GMT
Oh I had that done today, though dark brown n red rather than black (not that brave yet!)
How did yours go?
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Post by kelsy on Feb 10, 2007 19:26:22 GMT
Like this... XD weeee, kind of bad quality, but we ended up mixing my pink dye with my red dye! So it's really awesome!
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Post by cesca on Feb 10, 2007 20:30:19 GMT
ohhhh me likie! I need to dye mine actually.....*mumbles* bloody grey hair
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